22.1.12
69
This is wrong.
Someone... tell me I'm just dreaming.
Please. Please. Be okay.
You have to honor my sacrifice.
Dont let me forget it for as long as I live.
The person you really really love might not be here anymore, but if there is a person who really really loves you instead, wouldnt that even things out... ?
So, dont think that you are all alone, okay. Because I'll be looking at you.
I'll always be looking at you. I'll watch over you.
How many times have I played this over in my mind by now..?
It's because you were there that I was able to come this far.
Because you were somewhere beneath the same sky as me...
Even when we were apart, I could never forget.
I was always wishing you were happy.
That's all that's been keeping me together.
You're the one... who made me strong.
I kept my promise.
I'm sorry.
Even though I promised I'd always be watching you ...
I lost sight of you halfway.
I ran away.
You didnt run away.
You just strayed a little.
And then you got a little lost.
Your compass was broken.
But you found your way back.
You came back.
You must be tired, right?
It was painful, wasnt it ?
Really hard, right?
But its alright now.
You dont need to worry anymore.
Just stay here.
And rest.
Thank you for waiting for me.
Someone... tell me I'm just dreaming.
Please. Please. Be okay.
You have to honor my sacrifice.
Dont let me forget it for as long as I live.
The person you really really love might not be here anymore, but if there is a person who really really loves you instead, wouldnt that even things out... ?
So, dont think that you are all alone, okay. Because I'll be looking at you.
I'll always be looking at you. I'll watch over you.
How many times have I played this over in my mind by now..?
It's because you were there that I was able to come this far.
Because you were somewhere beneath the same sky as me...
Even when we were apart, I could never forget.
I was always wishing you were happy.
That's all that's been keeping me together.
You're the one... who made me strong.
I kept my promise.
I'm sorry.
Even though I promised I'd always be watching you ...
I lost sight of you halfway.
I ran away.
You didnt run away.
You just strayed a little.
And then you got a little lost.
Your compass was broken.
But you found your way back.
You came back.
You must be tired, right?
It was painful, wasnt it ?
Really hard, right?
But its alright now.
You dont need to worry anymore.
Just stay here.
And rest.
Thank you for waiting for me.
10.1.12
Mémoires
Como muchas cosas en mi extraña vida, fui llevada alli por la corriente.
She told me i was like water, el agua puede labrar su camino incluso a través de la piedra. Y cuando está atrapada el agua toma un nuevo curso.
El día es muy hermoso para estar triste.
No tengas miedo de mirarme.
Ninguno de nosotros encuentra tanta bondad en la vida como debería.
En ese momento cambié de una chica enfrentandose nada más que al vacio, a alguien con un propósito.
A place in his world.
And then somehow, to meet him again.
En ese momento sentí al mundo cambiar, pero no por mi decisión.
I would lock away my heart, and save it for him
Debes disfrutar la vida mientras puedes.
No debemos esperar la felicidad, no es algo que merezcamos.
Cuando la vida marcha bien, es un regalo inesperado, no puede durar para siempre.
Im not worthless.
Cant you see that i want you for myself ?
The heart dies a slow death. Shedding each hope like leaves, until one day there are none. No hopes. Nothing remains.
I hope it is not too late.
Can't you see? Every step I have taken, since I was that child on the bridge, has been to bring myself closer to you.
She told me i was like water, el agua puede labrar su camino incluso a través de la piedra. Y cuando está atrapada el agua toma un nuevo curso.
El día es muy hermoso para estar triste.
No tengas miedo de mirarme.
Ninguno de nosotros encuentra tanta bondad en la vida como debería.
En ese momento cambié de una chica enfrentandose nada más que al vacio, a alguien con un propósito.
A place in his world.
And then somehow, to meet him again.
En ese momento sentí al mundo cambiar, pero no por mi decisión.
I would lock away my heart, and save it for him
Debes disfrutar la vida mientras puedes.
No debemos esperar la felicidad, no es algo que merezcamos.
Cuando la vida marcha bien, es un regalo inesperado, no puede durar para siempre.
Im not worthless.
Cant you see that i want you for myself ?
The heart dies a slow death. Shedding each hope like leaves, until one day there are none. No hopes. Nothing remains.
I hope it is not too late.
Can't you see? Every step I have taken, since I was that child on the bridge, has been to bring myself closer to you.
9.1.12
Mentir.
Me mentis tanto que a veces me sacás de quicio. Tus palabras me envuelven como sogas, me tuercen, me anudan y me llevan y me traen de un lado a otro. Me tienen cautiva. En la oscuridad.
A veces me cuesta ver la verdad. No importa cuántas palabras uses, cuánto quieras negarlo, cuánto quieras ocultarlo. Yo lo sé todo. Te conozco. Desde que naciste, no estuviste un sólo día sin mí. ¿Cómo te atreves a engañarme? Mejor dicho, ¿por qué pretendés engañarme? Vos estás en mí, yo estoy en vos y somos un único ser. No sirve que me escondas, no sirve que me calles, no sirve que simules que no estoy o aparentes que no importa lo que pienso, porque lo quieras o no, fluyo en vos. Estoy en tu sangre, entro y salgo de cada poro de tu piel, recorro tu rostro en tus lágrimas, soy parte de cada pensamiento, me llevas dentro.
No me mientas más, no me lastimes más. Llorá cada vez que te sientas angustiada, gritá cuando sientas que no podés más, sentí por más que quieras evitarlo, sonreí y desternillate de risa cuando seas feliz, recordalo siempre si es que no podés olvidarlo, crecé adquiriendo la sabiduría de todo lo que vivis, pero lo más importante: no te cierres, no te contengas, no trates de dominarte, de medir todo lo que haces. Deja que salga, nada de lo que hagas o pienses está mal. No importa lo que piensen los demás. No importa lo que te digan. Vos tenés tus tiempos. O no, pero no hace ninguna diferencia. Ya sabés que vas a seguir viviendo.
No me mientas. No te mientas. No importa cuánto tejas y destejas, siempre voy a estar ahí para recordarte lo que pensamos, lo que sentimos, lo que queremos de verdad.
Yo.
A veces me cuesta ver la verdad. No importa cuántas palabras uses, cuánto quieras negarlo, cuánto quieras ocultarlo. Yo lo sé todo. Te conozco. Desde que naciste, no estuviste un sólo día sin mí. ¿Cómo te atreves a engañarme? Mejor dicho, ¿por qué pretendés engañarme? Vos estás en mí, yo estoy en vos y somos un único ser. No sirve que me escondas, no sirve que me calles, no sirve que simules que no estoy o aparentes que no importa lo que pienso, porque lo quieras o no, fluyo en vos. Estoy en tu sangre, entro y salgo de cada poro de tu piel, recorro tu rostro en tus lágrimas, soy parte de cada pensamiento, me llevas dentro.
No me mientas más, no me lastimes más. Llorá cada vez que te sientas angustiada, gritá cuando sientas que no podés más, sentí por más que quieras evitarlo, sonreí y desternillate de risa cuando seas feliz, recordalo siempre si es que no podés olvidarlo, crecé adquiriendo la sabiduría de todo lo que vivis, pero lo más importante: no te cierres, no te contengas, no trates de dominarte, de medir todo lo que haces. Deja que salga, nada de lo que hagas o pienses está mal. No importa lo que piensen los demás. No importa lo que te digan. Vos tenés tus tiempos. O no, pero no hace ninguna diferencia. Ya sabés que vas a seguir viviendo.
No me mientas. No te mientas. No importa cuánto tejas y destejas, siempre voy a estar ahí para recordarte lo que pensamos, lo que sentimos, lo que queremos de verdad.
Yo.
8.1.12
58-68
Goodbyes are often so painfully quick... and time really tends to have no meaning at all.
One day, you will surely reach him.
That's why, with great patience I want you to wait for him.
I remember that there is a smiling face that can make my chest tighten.
Why couldn't I have stopped the time?
For so long I've been looking for an answer
What did I do wrong?
Where did I go wrong?
I will probably never find out
However, for the rest of my life.. A lifetime..
I will live while embracing this feeling: I couldn't make you happy.
I'm sorry.
I love you. Thank you.
One day, you will surely reach him.
That's why, with great patience I want you to wait for him.
I remember that there is a smiling face that can make my chest tighten.
Why couldn't I have stopped the time?
For so long I've been looking for an answer
What did I do wrong?
Where did I go wrong?
I will probably never find out
However, for the rest of my life.. A lifetime..
I will live while embracing this feeling: I couldn't make you happy.
I'm sorry.
I love you. Thank you.